I'm terribly sorry this happened and I really hope you can find what you're looking for - on this blog, but also in life. It's not easy to achieve your goals and broken sites throwing a wrench into your daily business aren't exactly helping.
But look at the bright side: You're out and about learning about Java and that's pretty cool! I'd love to help you with that as much as I can: If you reach out to me and let me know what you were looking for, I'll find it and get back to you ASAP.